| Delicate, Like Teeth on a Rose |
[Feb. 3rd, 2009|08:28 pm] |
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| | Martyr - Perpetual Healing (Infinite Pain) | ] |
My muse came to me in a dream
The dream was brilliant and awe-inspiring;
I felt the waves crash against me
Colouring this marvelous scene.
Every rose has its thorn,
And every dog its day.
A nibble just as gentle
As a baby newborn.
These feeling surged through
Like a hot knife through butter,
Or piano wire through flesh,
Or mother's milk from the breast.
But what of my muse?
Where has she gone?
The love she has inspired me with,
And the warmth from her eyes.
Her head in my hands,
The feeling of her soft skin.
I had nearly forgotten
There was more to her.
But that's not important,
It was her head what inspired me
Her body lay crimson,
In a pool on the floor.
(This is yet to be named) |
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| damn British and Jewish women.... <--- only reason why I'm posting this |
[Jul. 17th, 2005|03:12 am] |
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| | RA - Sky | ] |
(Stolen from Sare, who stole from Lilly, who probably stole from Dods)
Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me. It can only be one word.
No more.
Then copy & paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you.
P.S. - try not to say "Jesus" because I know everybody's gonna wanna put that one.... |
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| COFFEE!! |
[Jul. 6th, 2005|11:58 am] |
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| | Killswitch Engage - When Darkness Falls | ] |
yeah so, I get up to leave my room in search for coffee, and I walk out of my room (and for those of you a little familiar with the layout, once you walk out of my room, right in front is the second bathroom/laundry room) so I see my dad's wife Tanya sorting out laundry, and she's holding two pairs of underwear, one green and one pink. I'm standing there staring because I'm thinking that those are my sisters' underwear, and she can't figure out who's is who's or something. but I'm standing there with this look on my face thinking "why, dear god, WHY can't she just put those down?? I don't wanna see my sister's underwear...." then she looks at me with a sort of goofy smile and she asks "why are my underwear here?" that's when I bolt up the stairs, shouting back "I don't need to know these things!! I didn't need to see them!!"
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| ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... *BOOM!!* |
[Jul. 4th, 2005|11:26 pm] |
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| | The friggin' TV....!! | ] |
blah, my computer exploded. I have no access to teh intarweb no more.... except now. I'm using my dad's computer. so bear with me |
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| I feel sick to my stomach.... |
[Jul. 3rd, 2005|09:58 pm] |
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| | In Flames - Biosphere | ] |
sweet monkey fucking potato Jesus.... my sisters are running through the house.... BUTT NAKED!! and they're asking me for cookies.... what the hell?! |
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| blechh.... |
[Jun. 29th, 2005|11:08 pm] |
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| | Dream Theater - Space Dye Vest | ] |
so yeah so.... I think I just hit a turning point in my life where I got a pack of new socks.... and upon getting them I was GENUINELY excited about it.... wow.... go me....
in OTHER news.... I got some food for my geckos today (some worms) and there were a few that were actually VERY FUCKING FAT!! I've never seen silkworms that fat!! so I open the tank so I can feed them, and they're getting used to the routine. they actually moved closer to the edge of the tank to look at the worms I got them, and they're actually looking at the pack of worms. so I'm taking the fat worms first obviously (give the smaller ones a chance to feed and get fatter) and Eagle and Jaguar both (my geckos) are still staring at the pack and me, waiting for the worms to magically appear in their mouths. I'm laughing and telling them to turn around because the worms are behind them. after a while they finally get it and decide to eat. oh silly thems.... |
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| GS for LIEF sucka |
[Jun. 28th, 2005|11:36 pm] |
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| | Nine Inch Nails - With Teeth | ] |
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF: ยป
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:
HAVE YOU EVER:
Lied to make me feel better?:
Wanted to kiss me?:
Wanted to kill me?:
Broke my heart?:
Kept something important from me?:
Thought I was unbearably annoying?:
~*::And More::*~
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you? |
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| Ummm.... Hear no evil, speak no evil. Yadda yadda.... |
[Jun. 28th, 2005|03:23 pm] |
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| | Demons and Wizards - My Last Sunrise | ] |
Straight
You scored 43 (-52 being completely gay, 0 being bisexual, and 52 being completely straight) |
| As of right now, you are interested in the opposite sex. You have very little to no sexual interest in the same sex. If you are sexually inexperienced at this point, it is possible that you have latent homosexual tendencies that you have not yet discovered. |
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My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 92% on Orientation |
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.... right. at least I scored high for straight, heh |
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| Mmmm.... BABY!! |
[Jun. 28th, 2005|01:04 pm] |
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| | Oasis - Wonderwall | ] |
Alright, alright. I owe this muthafugga a post. It's about time. Alright, let's reflect on the weekend's events, shall we? I'll do this in as much detail as possibly possible.
~~~~Thursday~~~~
Got up, got dressed. Showered and shaved for Lilly's grad ceremonial. I actually took the time and got myself all spiffed up for the damn thing too. I looked like a fuckin' GINO.... wow.... So anyways, I was supposed to meet Sare and we were supposed to go together. She tells me where to meet her and I pretend I know where to meet her, but I give her my number just in case I get lost (I smart) so she calls me "Where are you??" "I'm lost!! That's where!!" yeah, ok, going on. Meet up with Sare, go to Vanier for the grad, bump into a few people I know, I gave a hug to Carmen (my bro's, and damn near everybody else's favourite teacher). Grad starts and I sit down with Sare, Mike and Jen come by later to join. The entire time I'm complaining, "I'm cold." "I'm hungry." "I have to pee." "It's BORING!!" and such.... Ceremonials finish, I make chit chat with the people there, pop a couple caffiene pills, leave with Ashley and Lilly's mom and stepdad (I found out just that day what her mom's name is) we go to Lilly's house for Champagne and mingling with familials. before her family arrives, we mingle in Lilly's roomn, listening to RHCP greatest hits album. we're talking, looking at pictures, Lilly's showing me her broken drawer. her room's nice.... she forgot to show me Winkey (I think I spelt that right?) we get called down for champagne and such. I felt out of place being the only male out of all the female friends (two, but still). Ashley and Sare go to the front to have a smoke, Lilly goes to get clothes, I'm feeling out of place so I join the smokers. We chat a bit, Lilly calls me to give her an opinion on which jacket to wear, I say the first one, but she likes the second, so I tell her to wear the second. She does. The she asked me for perfume advice, I gave it. Then I'm going downstairs to rejoin the smokers and Lilly asks me to keep her company while she mingles with her family, I shrug and say ok. Lilly's mom asks me to take out a bottle of champage, David shows me how and I fill the glasses (the champage was kinda.... yuck....) It's time to leave to go to the restaurant!! Lilly's mom taking pictures.... God, so many pictures.... catches a picture of me leaning against the wall, I'm cursing in my head because I tried so hard to avoid having any photo evidence of me dressed up. We depart, Lilly's mom commenting on how they're all so lucky to have me along as an escort.... Upon leaving, Lilly and I go back to fetch Sare a pair of socks because she already tore her stockings. We head to the restaurant, we get a booth seat, Lilly next to Sare, me next to Ashley, but me in front of Lilly and Sare in front of Ashley. The three of them commenting on how hot the waiter is, and I'm too busy feeling very, very, VERY uncomfortable. My burger came half raw when I asked for well-done.... "oh, we don't want to bother him any more!" ugh.... I felt so sick after that.... I paid for Sare's food (what a gentleman, heh) then we leave, and they go to apply their makeup in a MacDo (they probably came out 30% greasier) and we decide to head off to Cheers. Ashley gets the brilliant idea to call Cory (poor bastard....) and he promises to come out and join us. We take the metro and I'm keeping my distance, letting the three of them do their thing and I'm just doing the dark/mysterious thing by standing off. Lilly kept pulling me close saying "join us!" or whatnot. I'm playing "magic man" and finding out exactly where to stand to get the doors to the stairs at Peel. We walk down a while, we find cheers (woulda been faster to get off at McGill) we get into Cheers (no door bouncers) and Lilly goes up, "7$ cover? Sure!" and Sare has no money for cover and drinks, so Ashley steps up and pays for them both (nice timing, don't have to worry about carding there) we find a place near the bar to sit, Lilly, Ashley, Sare sit at the bar. I sit behind Ashley and Sare. they order there drinks, Lilly turns back and invites me to sit beside her. I go. I order a drink, I'm telling Lilly to take it easy, but not much aside from that. Lilly and Ashley had smirnoff's and tequila shots, then they decide to go for blowjobs and as they're taking them this bartender takes pictures of them and sais they're gonna be on the website (haven't seen them yet). different good songs come up, Bad to the Bone, One Bourbon One Scotch One Beer, and such.... lots of random singing going on. REM came on too.... Lilly starts getting tipsy and resting her head on my shoulder, I'm feeling uncomfortable because she's drunk and mixed signals and yeah.... Lilly starts calling Adam Brenner on my phone.... I'm getting pissed but I'm not saying anyways. Each and every time she calls him.... after a while of drinking, Lilly making phone calls and such, I get up and relocate to the other side to where Ashley's sitting. Lilly gets pissed. I start talking to Ashley and drinking more, I'm noticing the stares coming from Lilly. whatever. I'm talking to Sare a bit too, we talk about the metalheads we find on the other side of the bar. we decide that a dress code isn't really required to get into Cheers. Sare wanted to talk to one particular metalhead she thought was hot, and was alone so she wanted to make him un-alone. a brotha metalhead came along. he was cool. then Sare gets the BRILLIANT idea of me doing a body shot.... we saw one of the barmaids do them, so Sare suggests I do one. Ashley volunteers. I get up to do it, pictures are taken, glares from Lilly, Ashley took her DAMN TIME to do the shot, spilt bailey's all over my shirt and chest.... I ended up with quite a bit of whipcream in my hair. my hair got all pasty and sticky, as well as my back a bit and yeah.... I was a mess. we drink a bit more then leave. (many more random calls to Cory were made throughout the night) we take a couple pictures outside of Cheers then go for a walk to find a dance club. On the way some random guy starts talking to Ashley, I step up and grab her arm to keep her away from him, more glares and curses from Lilly, Ashley's resisting and giving the guy her number. he leaves, I actually bump into people that I know from Dawson and I'm thinking "fuck.... witnesses of me dressed up" we chat a bit, the guy thought I was emo.... ew.... he said he didn't know styles, so yeah. we part ways again, we go for a walk, Ashley comments that she's not drunk, some random guy passes by, "I try to be". we walk up and down Crescent for a while looking for a dance club.... Sare's getting tired, Ashley's going insane, Lilly's being quiet and I'm almost ready to spaz. Ashley and Lilly find a dance club and go in, free for girls, guys pay 5$, but the bouncer was about to let me in for free. Sare just wanted to sit, so I stayed outside with her and let the other two go in and dance. Sare said she had to go to the bathroom, so she went to BK, I went in to get the dancing queens. They tried to get me to dance, and in the process Lilly headbutts me in the freakin' nose.... damn that hurt.... got me solid too.... they had done a little drinking inside the dance club, so I get fed up and walk out. they follow behind me. we join Sare at BK, but we can't find her anywhere. Lilly goes to look for her in the washroom, I stay with Ashley for a minute while she orders her french fries and onion rings. Sare and Lilly come back, I go to the washroom. after we all sit down and eat our gourmet meal of fries and such. Lilly's trying to feed me and I'm trying to bite her fingers. then we make a game of who can actually throw the frenchfries in my mouth. Sare manages to get one in, Lilly misses them all horribly. the only one she gets in is the one she placed in my mouth, then I bit her because she cheated. we finish, we get outside and look for a cab. Ashley's sitting on the floor and some guy asks for change and Ashley sais that she spent it all on booze and he walks off "yeah right...." we try to get a cab, then some guy waves one down for us, and he starts hitting on Lilly. "Where you from pretty lady?" "Canada" "What part?" "Ontario" then we get in the cab. van cab. Sare and I are way in the back, Ashley and Lilly are in the middle. creepy cab driver in front. Ashley didn't have her belt on, and started staggering and trying to take pictures. she falls off the chair, I go to grab her and she snaps a picture. I'm blinded and fall back. I make Lilly strap her down. a cop's right beside us, OH EM TEH JEE!! we keep going, we get to Lilly's house, I pay the cabby (Lilly didn't wanna wake up her mom) we go into the back, very very quietly. we're talking, Ashley's smoking, we're indulging in sweets. Sare takes the swizzel stick I stole from Cheers and stabs some Tootsie Roll wrappers, then a Tootsie roll and breaks it. I mourned the loss of my swizzle stick. Ashley starts singing. a lot. we're talking about Canadian Idol and shit. Ashley suggsets starting a band with Sare and Lilly. I sit and laugh. they come up with a few names. I suggest "What the Shit?" Sare seriously suggests "What the XYZ" and then just "XYZ". Lilly swings by, asks me if I mind if she sits on my lap, I'm thinking "yes" but at the same time I let her because I want her. she holds my hand, or I held hers, I forget. we talk. Johnny comes by and I pet him. he claws and bites me. bastard cat. Lilly's moving in and out getting water now and stuff. then she sits on the stairs and falls asleep on her knee. I get up to check on her if she's ok, she wakes up, sprawls out on the deck and goes back to sleep. we decide now's a good time to get settled in for bed. we go to the basement (moderately quietly) the three of them get changed for bed. Lilly takes my stained beater and goes to wash it. I leave my shirt on because I wasn't sleeping shirtless.... it was cold in the basement. we agree that Sare sleeps on the floor as long as she has a blanket at a pillow. Ashley and Lilly get one futon, I get the other (go me!!) I go to the bathroom, Ashley's in my futon. I'm looking at my options, share with Lilly, share with Ashley.... I kick ashley out and take the futon. Ashley and Lilly are settled in now, we're all laying down to sleep (except me. I'm doing the insomniac thing of staring at the cieling, eyes wide open) Lilly gets up, she wants to say hi to Sare. after a moment she joins me on my futon and sais "let's all visit Francis" all four of us are cramped on the tiny futon. I'm sitting cross-legged, Sare's sitting cross-legged (I'm assuming, she was bundled up) Ashley's sprawled out in a drunken frenzy. we're talking random stuff. "if you could be one animal, what would it be?" then we quickly moved on to calling each other animals. Sare was a bear because of how she was bundled up. heh.... Sarebear.... Ashley passes out, I threaten to kick her in the head because she was kicking me. it didn't wake her up either way.... the three of us make comments to Ashley's snoring. "She's cutting logs" "she's dreaming about being in a forest, in a cabin with Cory. and they're sawing logs" then I commented on how she whipped out the chainsaw. heh.... Sare passes out, and Lilly and I are talking a bit.... I get up because I was physically uncomfortable.... I relocate to the other futon. Lilly joins me shortly after. we lay down.... with about a millimetre of personal space between us.... we talked all fucking night almost.... it was beyond great.... we had a nice long, deep talk.... ANYways.... Lilly just passed out at one point. literally. she rolled over, placed her head on the pillow and she was out. then shortly after I pass out.
~~~~ Friday ~~~~ (technically, that already passed, but still)
I'm half awake and I hear moving. Sare comes out of the bathroom and I hear aluminum. "Help yourself to my gum" I say. "I am" comes the response. I sit up, Lilly sits up, I look at her with a bit of a smile (don't think she noticed) and Sare looks at us, "when did you two get there?" hah.... Lilly relocates, I stay there on the MAN'S futon!! oh yeah. Ashley wakes up also, we all talk. we decide we want pancakes!! with cinnamon!! and chocolate chips!! Lilly tells us we have neither of the two.... *tear* but we have pancakes anyways. Sare calls home, Ashley calls home.... Lilly calls home to say we're.... home.... and we want pancakes :D we wake up slowly, we mingle. pillow fight. quick foozeball game (I pwn!!) take a few morning pictures. Ashley loses her phone in her purse. HAH!! Lilly runs my beater in the dryer finally, heh. I'm standing and I smack her in the face with a pillow, then I hug her as an apology. "Now let me hold your hand.... I wanna hold your hand...." sorry, random song insertion there.... ummm.... there were random boob slips!! hah!! I saw, so much for trying to hide.... heh.... Lilly talks to her mom and finds out our Saturday day plans will have to be cancelled.... awww.... booo.... we go upstairs. breakfast is ready :D David makes coffee for us. we sit in the back, we manage to squeeze anyways. pancakes!! yummy!! coffee with honey?? woah.... I got all my honey at the bottom.... who needs a spoon?? I stir with my fork!! David puts on some music while we eat. after we're done and clean up, Lilly puts on her music. Eurythmics. we're talking band names. again. they were serious. dear god.... they made a list. Lilly puts on more music, the CD I made for her.... she listens to that damn cd ALL the time.... I sit down with David, we jam for a bit, after a while I play a song for Lilly. I made her guess that I was playing "I Wish You Were Here" I was amased how quickly she got it. she said she listens to that song all the time. my brother calls me. jerk. he told me to leave. I avoided conflict, so I got my stuff together, said my byes, left with Sare. I kept looking back. made sure I didn't forget anyways. met my brother. went to Rob's house. I was hungry already. I only had two pancakes and like, three raspberries. we leave to go to the Ambersparks show. Lilly calls me saying she can't come. she doesn't know it but I'm really bummed out by then. that's two plans to meet up cancelled. we go to the show, everybody's asking "where's Lilly?" and well, I told them honestly why.... because Ashley + Nat = no fun.... And they were together. hell, Lilly was staying at Ashleys. ANYways.... as for the concert, the ONLY good band was Ambersparks. ADD sucked monkey nut and Lucerin Blew, sorry, Lucerin Blue.... well, they blew anyways. but still. Lucerin Blew didn't even have any respect for the other bands playing. they were out having their gay races outside. ugh.... after that we left, my brother, Robert and I, and we went to Decarie hot dogs for a gourmet meal of poutine and hotdoggets. yummy. dip your hotdogs in your poutine next time. grossly wonderful. anyways, I gave my brother hell for being a jerk all day. we went home my brother and I, we talked a bit, then played games all night and that was it.
~~~~ Saturday ~~~~
It was boring. I didn't see Lilly. BOOO LACK OF PLANS!! GRRR!! and my brother was at work. so I played videogames all day
~~~~ Sunday ~~~~
I was supposed to be at a pool party. my ride never came to get me. I studied all day (yay summer school?)
~~~~ Monday ~~~~
Had a rediculously long talk with Lilly.... wow.... we never opened up that much ever.... ummm.... yeah. won't get into that. we're done here
LOVE PEACE AND CHICKEN GREASE!!
(NOTE: this post took me damn near an hour and a half to post. exactly one hour and 22 minutes) |
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[Jun. 20th, 2005|11:55 pm] |
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| | Incubus - I Miss You | ] |
ugh.... even if I WANTED to make a nice post tonight, I absolutely can't.... I have too much work to do tonight. In my RM class, we went to the computer labs rediculously late for the first time, so we only had an hour to work on our labs (we usually have at least two hours), and I was also trying to help out my friend Gina who was spazzing out because she couldn't work and stuff, so I didn't get to finish my work myself. so now, I have to get working to finish this damn assignment then go ALL THE WAY to fucking Dawson just to hand in a piece of paper and leave so I don't lose marks on this assignment and can get it back for Wednesday.... it's a three hour trip, and I'm gonna lose that much time that I'm gonna need to study for my Calculus exam on Wednesday.... FUCK.... go figure though, I'm having a harder time keeping up with work in the birdie class. Calculus is giving me less of a hard time, and Research Methods, a class that I just have to sit down and READ in, I'm behind in work. either I'm spending too much time and energy on Cal because it's math and it's supposed to be super hard, or I dunno.... bad time management? christ, I swear, I'm willing to pay somebody to print and hand in my assignment to my teacher tomorrow so I don't have to lose three hours just to go there and come back.... oh well, time to get to work....
Hi HOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
Hi HOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
Hi ho, hi ho!
It's off to work I go!
*EDIT*
On the bright side.... at least I got chicken....
Well.... no, not really chicken. more like sausice, greens and potatoes, but still.... I was fucking STARVING and had to resort to buying one of those fake deli sammiches at MacDo (which kinda suck by the way....) just to tide me over.... MMMM FOOD!! |
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[Jun. 20th, 2005|11:49 am] |
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| | Mudvayne - Forget to Remember | ] |
ugh, I wake up this morning, and it was the FIRST NIGHT in I dunno how many that I actually slept (it helps that I haven't slept at all the night before I guess) but there I am sleeping, all happy and even smiling, freakin' SMILING in my sleep.... and I wake up suddenly, having come to the realisation that I have SUMMER SCHOOL today.... ugh.... go figure.... and on top of that, I had a bowl of cereal, and my frosted flakes weren't even frosted!! oh well.... we'll see how the day progresses, I have to leave for school in 10. I'm considering putting a post about the weekend up.... I dunno if I want to. I don't much enjoy thinking about Saturday's events.... anyways, peace out |
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[Jun. 16th, 2005|10:45 pm] |
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| | The Beatles - You've Got To Hide Your Love Away | ] |
yeah, I don't have anything worth saying, but I just felt like posting the lyrics to a song. It's one of the songs that I've been learning to play for my old guitar class, and I just felt like putting the lyrics up. It's a good Beatles song, and I'm working on perfecting the song, so I've heard it a few times today already. ANYways, here goes....
The Beatles - You've Got To Hide Your Love Away
Here I stand, Head in hand
Turn my face to the wall
If she's gone, I can't go on
Feeling two foot small
Ev'rywhere people stare
Each and ev'ry day.
I can see them laugh at me
And I hear them say:
"Hey! You've got to hide your love away!"
"Hey, you've got to hide your love away!"
How can I even try?
I can never win
Hearing them, seeing them
In the state I'm in
How could she say to me
"Love will find a way"?
Gather 'round all you clowns,
Let me hear you say:
"Hey! You've got to hide your love away!"
"Hey, you've got to hide your love away!"
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Yeah, it's a short song, but it's really nice. I'll post a more worthwhile read probably Sunday night. Nothing exciting happened so far. Except that I got rediculously soaked yesterday on my way home (leave it to me not to bring a coat or an umbrella when it's pouring rain) but I don't want to get into the details because I don't want people to laugh at me too much. Oh, and one of my (summar school) teachers singled me out by using the example that, according to the deductions that children make, "Boys don't have long hair." and upon inspection of the classroom, of about 30 students, maybe 13 males.... I was the only with long hair. Hell, I had longer hair than some of the females in the class, including the teacher. Thusly, I was singled out and threatened to cut my hair short.
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[Jun. 14th, 2005|06:19 pm] |
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| | Silvertide - Ain't Comin' Home | ] |
how about that.... I just, a couple minutes ago, had a rediculously short talk with Lilly just now. it consisted of her saying that we're not gonna go out because she said there's no romantic interest and her apologising, me saying "yeah sure, no problem" (and for some reason, it really didn't phase me that much), and then we agreed we'd talk tonight for a little chat. that was it.
huh.... pretty strange, eh? I'm amazed as to how un-phased I was by it. I guess I saw it coming or something. I won't deny that a part of me is kinda disappointed, but meh. I've gone through worse I guess. nothing compares to what my ex has done to me.... god DAMN that sucked. oh well. moving along.
suppar's in a bit.... I have no idea what we're even having. I hope it's good, and yummy.
in other news, about 10 minutes ago, I had an extreme heat flash, started sweating a bit (although it's not that hot) and now I feel perfectly normal. odd. oh well. time to move on. MegaMan awaits me.
speaking of MegaMan, check this out ---> http://megamanmovie.ytmnd.com/
P.S. - Luchy, how the hell do you post in the groups? like, the Italian group you started? how's that work? |
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| GEEEEEEEEEEEE ESSSSSSSSSSS!!!! |
[Jun. 13th, 2005|11:59 pm] |
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Arrite, this is an exerpt, and by exerpt, I mean the whole bloody thing, of an email I sent to Sare, ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) judeaslinksta, and yeah, here it is:
we-hell now.... you are OFFICIALLY 18 and ya know what?? I have.... another 17 minutes to officially write you that discouraging "you're 18 now so TOUGH SHIT!!" letter, and I'm gonna try my hardest. so anyways, HERE GOES!!
You're 18 now, eh? Well la-dee-friggin'-DA!! What's that mean for you? You're legal now so you can buy alcoholic beverages without being carded? WRONG!! You'll realise that since you're now 18, you'll virtually NEVAR get carded again!! That includes bars as well. Bouncers and legal card-checkers can smell legality from a MILE AWAY and you'll soon realise that they most often card you when you don't have any ID on you whatsoever. SO WHERE'S THE FUN IN THAT??
So you can drink legally.... WHOOP DEE FRIGGIN' DOO!! You've been drinking before you were legal, and you had (to some extent) a blast, and would you like to know why? Because you were a MINOR. Now that you're no longer a minor, but an adult now, drinking (or smoking cigarettes or whatever else) becomes routine, or, for lack of a better word, flacid. There's no more thrill, no more excitement to it. But wait, there's more.... and I'm saving the best for last....
Now that you're 18, you're much more RESPONSIBLE for your own actions. That means you have nobody left to turn to but yourself. Sure, you can go to other people for help, even your parents if they're nice enough, but ya know what? NO ONE SAID THAT ANYBODY HAD TO!! Tough cookie, sista!!
What else sucks about being 18? hmmm.... let's think of something good, shall we? OH YES!! I got one.... you're gonna have to start planning out your future a lot more seriously than "When I grow up, I'm gonna be a pink flamingo!" -that's not gonna cut it anymore. You're gonna have to REALLY sit down and think what you're gonna do with your life, and I mean actually DO with it!! Gotta make a statement in the world, no?
Here's a doozy.... being 18 now, not only are you more responsible for your actions, but you can get ARRESTED for them if you get caught doing something bad!! That's not all either, you can also get arrested just for being affiliated for those who do something bad, especially if they're minors, and they're gonna get away with a slap on the wrist while you get the real trouble, sucks, eh?
Well, having said that, I hope you're fairly mortified with this newfound knowledge. I'm sure you're not gonna be anyways, but it didn't hurt to try, no? Well, I got about 6 minutes to spare before it's past your birthday. I think I did good. I'm gonna paste this in my LJ for the sake of this being awesome and too good for nobody else to see, heh
And that was the extent of it. Aside from that.... let's summarise my weekend....
I DAMN NEAR DIED FROM FRIGGIN' HEAT EXHAUSTION!!
having said that.... let's go into a little more depth....
Did a few chores for my mother/yiayia, which included dishes, laundry, lawnmowing, etc
Went to the grocery store and had our first BBQ of the season. The marination was teh seks
Celebrated randomness with beer and grape soda, this was while watching Shaun of the Dead (and eating BBQ)
Taunted Lilly with the ways of awesomeness that is BBQ while making plans to meet up
Got up off my ass and installed the damn A/C's in my mom's house.
Somehow got suckered and spent the entire weekend sleeping in the damn basement (no rest/not that cool/my brother got the A/C rooms....)
Played Resident Evil 4, had difficulty sleeping....
Sacrificed children, WHAT?!
~~Monday~~
Woke up early, met Lilly and Vendome, Ashley was there (uhb....? Alright....)
Hung out a bit, let Lilly sample the cd I made for her
Went to the library with Lilly, Ashley went off somewhere
Lilly got free use of my cd player to listen to her CD as much as she wanted
Went to school, met Pat, went to math, made comments (go me), got food, met up with Gina, my cousin Carmella, her friend Amanda, gave Carmella and Amanda advice while laughing at them, went to class 45 mins late (thanks Genie) was smart in my RM class, danced out during break, sang to my teacher, finished assignment, went home, HERE I AM!!
And that is all. Love peace and chicken grease. |
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| Um, yeah, sure, why not? |
[Jun. 9th, 2005|05:46 pm] |
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| | Slayer - Bringer of Blood | ] |
1. What's the first word that comes to mind when you think of me?
2. Go to http://images.google.com/ and search for that word.
3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of results (don't tell me the word).
4. Use an image tag, i.e. < img src="url.of.the.image.goes.here" >
5. Put this in your own blog so that I can do the same.
I figure "why not?", so yeah. here I am |
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| Don't worry about it.... |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|01:30 am] |
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| | Random | ] |
Arrite, I'm aware that I haven't posted in like.... ever.... and this post isn't gonna be an overly happy one. See, there's this dilemma, and I refuse to name names for the sake of security. Anyways, the moral of the story is that there is this particular girl I know, and I've known her for a while actually, and since we've met we've been flirty and talkative and we got off to a GREAT start, it's rediculous. I don't think I've ever been able to communicate or open up that well with ANYbody in my life, which is insane. Things were kinda awkward at first; we'd flirt and talk a lot but that was it because we both thought that the other wasn't interested. Then I started dating, she started dating, but we kept in massive touch. Then I stopped dating, and she stopped dating, but neither of us were in the mood to go out really. So whatever.... time passed, other things happened, we stopped talking, I got involved again with someone new and out of the blue we start talking, and I'm thinking, "Holy crap, I made a mistake.... I shouldn't have gotten involved. I don't even need the companionship; I just need to talk to this one" and we started talking and either way, the new one I was "with", I never even saw, so that didn't last for that much.
But NOW, now that things have gone and progressed and we've gotten very close, me and the nameless one that is, we're spending more time together (a couple hang outs so far) and long talks every night on the phone, but at the same time.... she's been harrassed. People would keep coming up to her and saying things like, "So I hear you two are dating" or "You two aren't going out? Why not?" which, I don't blame her, can get very stressful. I guess it got to the point of being too stressful though, because it came to one of her friends actually going as far as saying "Be careful you don't get hurt", a reasonable, considerate friend statement since they've both been hurt in the past (fairly recently as well) but to hear the response as "Oh don't worry about it, nothing will happen" or whatever or was.... It kinda came as a stun to me. A nice bit of a shock. Tonight was the FIRST night that we've ever spoken and I was dead silent. She picked up on it as well.... she commented on my silence and found it very, VERY awkward. I just really didn't know what to say.... things seemed to go well, we had a pleasant little "date" today which consisted of going for lunch, sitting and talking in the park (some casual flirting here and there), her writing in my agenda, taking pictures with her, going for ice cream.... and then it seemed as a big shock to get the impression that there's virtually no romantic interest. It kinda stings, but I guess I shoulda seen it coming.... She was being pegged.... Even her parents were bothering her, just because we talk EVERY night.... and I can't help but feel slightly responsible like I shouldn't have pushed it.... I'm thinking I'm not gonna make such an effort to call her.... I'll see if she calls me.
I really do care about her, there's no doubt about it. I would do everything in my power to keep from hurting her. I just KNOW that if things worked out in that way for us, there'd be little or no conflict (let's face it, nobody's perfect. I can never keep my mouth shut and I always do something to annoy her without even trying), and I dunno.... I guess I'm letting my emotions get the best of me again.... It's odd. I've never felt this way about anybody before. There's a nice feeling of completion with this one. I don't wanna sound or pathetic or anything, but with the last few women I've dated, none of them felt right, at least not as right as this one does, and it's just odd. She feels it too, I know, otherwise she wouldn't have been the way she was with me all this time.
I know we could make it, but it's all up to her.... there's nothing I can do, and I don't want to push her, otherwise I might push her too far and I'll never have her.
( Slipknot - Vermillion Pt. 2 )
Yeah.... random Slipknot Insertion there with some slight relevance to it. Anyways, I'm gonna finish this off with the song that I've labelled as "My Song" just because I've listened to it a few times tonight, and yeah. I dunno, I'm gonna stick it in.
( Santana & Chad Kroeger - Why Don't You and I )
Yeah, I'm done. Don't get me wrong, this isn't a plea for help, or some whiny emo statement, and I'm not asking you people to bust your asses to give me your feedback or opinions. I just wanted to get this all out onto SOMETHING, so if you feel like you want to make a statement, you may. I'm not asking for anything. That is all. |
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| .... and all the girlies say I'm pretty fly (for a white guy) |
[Jan. 13th, 2005|09:25 pm] |
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| | The Police - Message in a Bottle | ] |
yeah yeah, I know, still been some time since my last post but I felt COMPELLED to post today. Why do you ask, oh devoted readers? simple!! a new fur/friend, soryane made a post today thanks to a contribution a la Camouflage ;) Go ahead. check it out. it's amusing. I ga-rohn-tee
Anyways, I have decided a future for myself. I'm gonna dedicate my life to living like a hot-shot entrepeneur. THAT'S RIGHT KIDDIES!! No more low-lifing it for me!! I've decided that from now on I'm gonna have my own successful company and I will sit in my office with a full bar in my desk, a constantly full glass in front of me, and when I'm not drinking I'll be wearing a speedo, covered in body lotion, modeling in front of my mirror regardless HOW bad outta shape I get :)
I've also decided that my friend (Hot) Jess will be my own personal secretary. She agreed to this, don't worry (the day I told her that she was "hired", she called out from wherever she was crouching, eating away at her treats, a joyful "yaaayy!") anyways, she'll be there in her own little secretarial office/desk doing her own thing.... and I'll be there modeling myself in my speedo, and it'll be her task to come in and grease me up as often as need be (or if I just want her hands all over me ;p) whether I'm rippling with muscles or waving with fat. hehe, I'll be calling her religiously :D
.... yeah, I'm done with that for now. We'll see if I update more. I need a reason too kiddies!! |
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